I always adore and was impress with people who writes very well and can really speak with their mind and so I said to myself I also like to write but I don’t know where to start and nothing really comes out in my head. It has been 1 hour of staring in my computer, reading the blogs of others, chatting in fb until I remember my letter to my boss when I had my landmark forum year back April 23, 2007.
Thank you is not enough for what had transformed me and the realization I had in attending the Landmark forum. It was indeed a great memory that I will treasure for the rest of my life and will leave mark in my heart together with my family, friends and colleagues as I journey into this new possibility.
On the second day of the forum I realized that I never said I LOVE YOU with my parents where in fact they are the most important person in my life and shame on me that I can easily says it with my friends. I immediately contacted my parents and told them that I LOVE THEM and I MISS THEM and apologize for all the heartache that I had done to them. Indeed those words I utter were so powerful that my parent was so happy to hear it personally from me for the first time after 30 years!?. It made me realized also that it was not just them that were overwhelmed with joy, I was surprised with my action and proud to fully express my feelings with my parents.
Another thing that had happen is to acknowledge the fact of me being less caring for my family. I let my youngest sister carry the other responsibility for our family and let her do things that am suppose to do since am the eldest. (Thus she looks older than me!) I apologize to her and create the possibility of being responsible.
Am a member of Singles for Christ in our Community and I never attended any activity for the last 1 year because of me being impatient in time. The forum made me realized am blaming them of being late all the time in our gathering, so am right (coz am on time and ahead of them) and they were wrong that tend me not to be visible in the community. Now that I will be handling in July our next Christian Life Program am opening the possibility of being committed. The forum also re-confirmed my full acceptance in serving the community.
The 3rd day of the forum opens my eyes that I had cause a lot of pain with my ex-boyfriend of me being selfish and dumping his proposal. I know in my heart that am healed and complete but surprisingly I was wrong because the forum made me realized that completeness does not end by just being healed as my ex-boyfriend will still hold on to the pain I cause him for the rest of his life. I don’t want him to hate me for such and its effect on his future and in my future relationship so am inventing the possibility of being someone who take the risk and be free.
And finally i was reminded of one of the verse in the bible from Genesis 1:29 "I give you every seed bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it". And so I realize that I just have to increase and be fruitful to what he has given me.
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